A Ramble

Brunei trip has come and gone. I'm almost a month into my new vocation in a brand new environment, with brand new companions, and time seems to fly by pretty fast and furious.

So much has happened within such a short period of time. This life is now one that is pretty exciting I must admit, though at the same time there are many moments I feel empty.

Perhaps it is due to comparison with others, or maybe it is because I've finally opened my eyes and made some pretty important decisions.

I don't think I will regret any of these decisions. I made decisions regarding people, regarding my career, regarding my life and all of these impacted, or will impact me deeply over time to come. I've let go of some things,  moved on from some things I never thought I would, and am starting a lot of things anew, on a fresh clean slate.

Decided to move on from a few people, whether related to relationships or friendship because I was really tired, and things were going nowhere, not in the foreseeable future. To be frank, I don't think that was the easy way out, to let it go. Letting go wasn't easy. It was freaking hell painful, though none of that pain was betrayed, and will not be visibly betrayed. It is a hint at an age old ego issue of guys, I guess, that because none of the that emotion felt will ever be comprehended or appreciated by the opposite party is the reason why I don't show any of what I feel out on the outside. One can almost say, there's no point.

But no use dwelling on such negativity as well. There's many other things worth appreciating.

Till then