A Ramble

Brunei trip has come and gone. I'm almost a month into my new vocation in a brand new environment, with brand new companions, and time seems to fly by pretty fast and furious.

So much has happened within such a short period of time. This life is now one that is pretty exciting I must admit, though at the same time there are many moments I feel empty.

Perhaps it is due to comparison with others, or maybe it is because I've finally opened my eyes and made some pretty important decisions.

I don't think I will regret any of these decisions. I made decisions regarding people, regarding my career, regarding my life and all of these impacted, or will impact me deeply over time to come. I've let go of some things,  moved on from some things I never thought I would, and am starting a lot of things anew, on a fresh clean slate.

Decided to move on from a few people, whether related to relationships or friendship because I was really tired, and things were going nowhere, not in the foreseeable future. To be frank, I don't think that was the easy way out, to let it go. Letting go wasn't easy. It was freaking hell painful, though none of that pain was betrayed, and will not be visibly betrayed. It is a hint at an age old ego issue of guys, I guess, that because none of the that emotion felt will ever be comprehended or appreciated by the opposite party is the reason why I don't show any of what I feel out on the outside. One can almost say, there's no point.

But no use dwelling on such negativity as well. There's many other things worth appreciating.

Till then

Won't Go Home Without You

So another 3 months have flew by. Next week, if all goes well I am going to receive my senior bar atop Elephant Hill and move on to whichever vocation in professional term.

Army, more specifically, Bravo Wing, has been a changing experience so far. Changed many bad habits, eradicated most of my sloth, rearranged my attitudes and realigned my mindsets. Got to know who is really important to me, who I should dedicate my time to, and who I shouldn't.

I won't say its been a super tough 3 months, but it has been tough enough, especially at the start, when I wasn't in the best state both mentally and physically. Luckily, things changed somehow, after Exercise Centipede and I became a better cadet, person and hopefully a better friend to the people around me. 

Time seems to fly by so fast, albeit only in retrospect. Social night is tomorrow, something I'm quite excited about, even though I won't perform anymore due to my illness, and next Wednesday 79/10 OCC's service term will draw to a close. I've watched people come and go, be it for their medicine studies, or leave due to injuries, and more recently my buddy since CLM depart for his studies after having a successful appeal.

On the other hand, we've had so many Exercises where we tested our skills, and we ourselves were put to the test, so much so that service term seems like a power packed compilation of events that we would do well to chronicle instead of strike off and forget. Exercise Scorpion King and Exercise Rhino still serves as the best memories of service term, one in terms of our combined effort, the other in terms of our capabilities put to the test in actual live firepower, one where we excelled.

Now we are going to part.

It reminds me that life is full of hellos and goodbyes. The most pertinent thought about such happening is that the imprint we leave behind is the same story that gets written down as well.

I've got a couple of favourite songs these days. The title is one of them, and its really quite a very nice song in its blend of sadness and hope.

Till then:)  

Here's to you

Maybe the next 9 months will be the most challenging phase of my life, physically and mentally. I think, motivation to persevere will be of paramount importance. Luckily, I hope to be able to pull through with the support of my friends, family, and faith, and try to do my best in all I undertake.

Till 3 weeks later!


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The Important Things In Life

Hello.

It's been a while since I've written anything here. A long long while. Hope that every one is well. :)

My life has changed. I'm no longer the exact same person my friends, family, and me used to know so well, and instead in his place is someone who can proudly say he has been through a lot more. Those who have been through the same rite of passage, I believe can say the same for themselves now.

It's been a positive change.

Life hasn't been too bad. In retrospect, the learning, discovery and bond buildings have made the previous 9 weeks the most fulfilling I could ask for. The things that we did are made memorable only by the people we held fast to.

The people with us physically, and the people in our hearts.

There are times, when each muscle is urging you to rest, when your brain seems to be overcome by fatigue so much so you just want to lie down and sleep. There are moments where the future seems impossible and your sense of purpose seems cloudy.

It's all in the mind, we learnt. We learnt to push on, to never say die, and to see the light at the end of the tunnel and then reach it.

For our parents, our families, our buddies, and the loves of our lives.

It is interesting to see different people powered by different forms of motivation, towards the same goal. It is reminiscent of how as individuals, we are after all left to function with our own unique devices, but to achieve together, we all have to aim there as one.

Still, I've always believed in fate bringing us into the future step by step and I have faith in all that we will be.

Maybe that's just you, and that's sunshine to me.

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Here's For You

Roger that. I've got your message. It's safe with me. Take care. Be happy and smile. I'm always here for you. Over and out. :)

So tomorrow is the day. Or rather, the rite of passage.

I am wildly excited for a new experience. I am nervous about the things I might not expect. I am hopeful that things will turn out great.

But we never know what's going to happen in the future.

So all we can do is hope for the best for the future and may all be good for all of us!

So guys and girls, take loads of care.

And here's for you. The one that would be good right now.